Ready or Not

Yesterday morning, i received an SMS from hubby saying that one of his schoolmate meninggal dunia. innalillahi wainna ilaihi raji'un... semoga rohnya dicucurkan rahmat dan tergolong antara orang-orang yang beriman.. ameen..

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It was a shocking news for me. apetah lagi my hubby and all his schoolmates kan... Eventhou i tak bape kenal, but i bumped into her a few times during college, since dia pn utm juga (faculty electric) n was staying in kolej9 juga. and when megat came for lunch, terjumpa.. he did introduce me to her... a few weeks ago, she just added us on facebook.. and we juz viewed her profile and talked about how cute her daughter is... her daughter dah agak besar tak sure how old... mayb almost two kot or two plus.... and she was pregnant with her second baby... 7 months or so... yeah... hubby said that she had difficulties to breathe time tido.. i was thinking mayb she had asthma or smethng.. tp tatau la kan... dah ajal di usia muda.. yang i terpk tu, perasaan her husband and the daughter yg tak sempat btul2 knal her mother.... sebaknye rasa... since i pn ada family, i did put myself in her shoes... bayangkan.. leaving zara all alone... with hubby... watching them from high above... hmmm... :((( takleh bayang la sbnanye..... alamak bergenang airmata i... noooo! :( tapi semua tu ketentuan Ilahi... dia ada planning yang terbaik untuk kita semua... bila dah sampai masanya... semua orang akan meninggalkan dunia yang fana ini...

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the night before we received the news... baru cakap2 pasal nak tukar waris insurans la ape la.. since my insurance ni start frm college tym dulu... i put my parents name as penama.. now kene ada allocation untuk zara la kan... and malam tu, huby pasang yassin e-quran kat laptop cfah plak.... aleh2 the next day ada berita kematian... sape2 yang terbaca post ini, marilah sama2 kita sedekahkan al-fatihah dan bacaan yassin untuk arwah Suhieda Sukiman...

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Peringatan untuk kita yang masih hidup: ibadah dah cukup ke?? pastinye tidak untuk saya... dosa yang menggunung tinggi ada... sudah bersediakah kita untuk bertemu dengan-Nya? sesungguhnya bersedia ataupn tidak.... masa kita akan tiba juga.... ajal memang tak mengenal usia....

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Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible.